There are moments when I feel like I want to give up or stop doing what I enjoyed doing. Sometimes, I question myself: “what am I good at? What are my talents?”
I’m sure I’m not alone. I have many friends who are suffering from the same problem too. Often times, we feel like we haven’t discovered ourself enough to actually know what our talents are. Which I agree, I say this ALL the time before.
But today, on a random thursday, I finally think that maybe it’s not that. Maybe I have discovered my talents and maybe so have you all. Maybe my talents are the things I enjoy doing and was once good at it. Why “was”? Because I stopped. Like many other people, I have the tendency to stop doing what I enjoy for many reasons: ‘busy’, not enough time, found another ‘more interesting’ hobby, or even not getting enough acknowledgement.
Perhaps the problem is not that I haven’t explored myself enough. But in fact, it’s because I tried too many things in short amount of time. So I didn’t give myself the opportunity to go in-depth. Maybe that’s the problem for most of you too.
I really enjoy writing, speaking, and makeup, as you all might know. But I do get intimidated at times and I do feel like I want to stop. For me though, I tend to pick myself back up, whether it’s sooner or later. Even though the cycle keep repeating itself but I do realise that I tend to pick myself back again.
Is it unusual? It may sound unusual to most people. It may sound different to most people. There are no secrets to achieving this. The key is, appreciate the little things. I always appreciate every little things that I find related to my hobby. Say, if I stop writing about my makeup tips because I feel like I’m not good enough and there are many better gurus out there (which is true). Then if one day I go out and someone compliments me on my looks. That would lift me back up. It could even be something as small as looking at old photos and realising how much fun I had doing it.
Truth is, never stop or second guess yourself at what you enjoy doing. Maybe you’re not the best now but nothing comes instantly. I suggest, rather than trying to explore yourself too much. Focus on one or two activities. Look back and think what you enjoyed before and do it again.
I, like many of you, believe that talent is a gift from God that we have to discover. But I bet, Mariah Carey didn’t discover her talent in singing just by singing along to a radio when she could start speaking. Someone probably saw the potential and trained it well so she could that there.
It’s the potential and a lot of training that bring you far.
Ahhh, don’t you just love your super random thoughts after work? Sometimes, the beauty of draining your brain is that you don’t over-think anymore. Because you don’t have the energy to think about the ‘what ifs’. Instead, you think of something more simple which could be better, healthier, and makes you happier.