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I still remember vividly, the day that I let my emotions take control…

It wasn’t a pretty time of my life. I remember waking up thinking that I couldn’t go on. I remember going to sleep thinking “what did I do wrong?”

At that time, nothing made sense. All I know is that, things were not supposed to be that way and I wasn’t prepared for that to happen.

I let my emotions take control, I let it take the best of me. All my judgements and all my rational thinking was clouded by my emotions. This wasn’t a pretty time for me (and yes, I thank God for those who helped me get through).

But now, looking back, although I am not suppose to regret. Although I am suppose to take it as a lesson and learn not to let it happen again. But honestly, I can’t help to think of all the bad decisions I made at that time.

I, although am ashamed to admit this but, regret it. I regret allowing my emotions get the best of me. I regret making the infamous decisions that lead me to be here today. Although, I still consider myself quite lucky but I am not happy.

I can’t help to think how much happier I would have been if I have never made that mistake. I can’t help to think how much new things I would be learning if I had not let my emotions control me.

My friend, my dear friend, I tell you now…. I may sound heartless, but, if you ever find yourself in a dark place and your emotions are beginning to take control. Don’t.

Don’t let it happen. Don’t let your emotions take control. And if it ever does, never let your emotions help you to make decisions. Because once you do, you’ll have to live knowing you made a mistake. Forever.

Shannen ❤